Saturday, April 18, 2020

You cried when I went to the hospital

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I come from a family of 4 children. The youngest in the family, my sister Jan, contracted spinal meningitis when she was 4 years old. I was 9, my brothers 11 and 7. I don't remember what words Mom used when she told the 3 of us that our sister had gone to the hospital, but she must have gotten the message across that Jan was in a scary, dangerous situation. We all cried.

Thankfully Jan recovered and came home. We soon realized that our mother had told her how we reacted when we heard the news of her sickness. Any time one of us did something that hurt little 4-year-old Jan's feelings she would say, "You cried when I went to the hospital." It became a common refrain.

That refrain amused us even then, and it's a funny family story now. This story and those words have come to my mind during this season of "coronatide," as I have heard it called. When one of us kids did something my sister felt was unkind or hurtful, her recitation "You cried when I went to the hospital" was reassuring to her. It reminded her -- and us -- that we loved and cared about her. When we acted in a way that seemed contrary to that love and care, it gave her comfort to remember we did love her, in spite of what we might be doing at that moment.

This story has come to my mind now because it illustrates my hope and prayer about how we as a church family will act when we return to worship together. We are human. We are going to mess up. We are going to say and do hurtful things. We are going to dislike actions and words that others do and say, and others are going to dislike actions and words that we do and say.

When we feel those feelings of hurt or offense or anger, my prayer is that we remember the way we showed up for each other during this time. Like my sister would reassure herself by saying "You cried when I went to the hospital," we can be assured, too, that we love and care for each other.

When we act like the flawed human beings we are, when we hurt each other, make each other angry, annoy each other, offend each other, we can recite our version of "You cried when I went to the hospital."

  • "You called me every week."
  • "You brought homemade soup to me."
  • "You got groceries for me."
  • "You dropped off a mask for me."
  • "You delivered a special treat to my house."
  • "You recorded greetings to bless me."
  • "You made a video of your sermon every week for me."
  • "You 'snail-mailed' me the printed sermon and Church Connection every week because I have no computer."
  • "You sent me encouraging cards."
  • "You prayed for me."


I am sure there are other acts of love and kindness we are doing for each other.

Our Father in Heaven, may we forgive each other for our unthinking, unintended hurtful acts as we remember our shared love for each other and our Lord Jesus Christ, in whose name we pray. Amen.

Friday, March 20, 2020

Pastoral Musings 2020 by Pastor George Vink

This morning as I listened to historian Doris Goodwin reflect on the need for strong, assuring leadership in times like these, the need for such pastoring came to mind. As individual Christians, but especially as pastors of congregations, we have daily opportunities to lead families, friends, and congregations, empowered by our faith and convictions. Turning to my email, there Henri Nouwen’s challenged me, “ I really want to encourage you not to despair, not to lose faith, not to let go of God in your life, but stand in your suffering as a person who is deeply loved by God.” (From The Prodigal)

“Loved by God…” How does that come home to me personally? What does that mean when I have to keep “social distance” and our streets seem abandoned? I can think of nothing better, no more to-the-core way than how a young pastor and professor put it over 450 years ago. It addressed a need for those times when persecution for one’s faith would include burning alive, for those cruel wars lasting years and taking millions of lives, and for the adventurous migrating to foreign lands. They began with the question, “What is your only comfort in life and in death?” Asking it that way made it obvious. It wasn’t going to be one among others. It’s the only one! Don’t despair and look for others! And then they chose the word “comfort,” originally “trooste,” a German word used to describe what’s needed in sad, trying, disturbing, challenging, world-changing circumstances. Times when a virus claims too many lives, and fear appears to triumph.


The assurance, the strength of “comfort” comes in its answer, an answer believers, pastors and princes have confessed with conviction again and again. It was whispered with dying last breaths as well as stated boldly in the face of persecution. We’ve recited it boldly at the gravesides of aged saints as well as stumbled tearfully through them at the small graves of tiny toddlers. It’s an anchor as well as a hug. I’m loved because I belong. I belong because I’m loved.

The Catechism’s authors answered the question. “My only comfort in life and in death is that I belong to my faithful Savior, Jesus Christ.” The words shout it out. It’s not about me! It’s about belonging to Him who holds the world in His hands. I’m in His family. I’m not alone. We can sing, “I believe for every drop…..” as well as “In Christ Alone.” Here we have ancient words, timeless words of comfort to be shared and demonstrated as believers and pastors. They are words revealing our conviction: With the Holy Spirit’s empowering, we must live, minister, and die in the assurance of eternal life. (John 10:10) We’re in his world for times like these…..






George Vink

Pastor George Vink has served as a pastor in the Christian Reformed Church for more than 30 years in British Columbia, Montana, Michigan, and California. He and his wife, Shirley, have four married sons and nine grandchildren.


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Friday, January 10, 2020

Front Door Communities, Doing Church, Respite for Homeless Women

Today I went to visit Front Door Communities, led by Paula Kelso, with whom I met. Front Door Communities is a non-profit organization whose primary purpose is to provide a respite for homeless women. They are located at 49 N. 4th Street, San Jose, CA 95112.

I was attracted to learning more about Front Door Communities because, when I read their story, it sounded as if they were a small church like we are and they did ministries according to what they were able. It sounded like they started small and grew as they were able, led by the Spirit and the needs.

It turns out that is true. The ministry was started by a PCUSA church. That church building now houses Front Door Communities. The church closed June of 2019, by that time down to 11 members. Paula Kelso was the minister. Her role became to pastor the church as it went through the closure. At first, Paula stayed away from the Front Door program, but in the end she became involved and now is the only fulltime paid employee. Paula did not go into too much detail, but it sounds like the church closure process was very difficult, with people being hurt and angered. At this point only one previous member is still involved with Front Door Communities.

The church property and much of the surrounding properties have been purchased by a development company. So far, there are no specific plans to level the building and develop, but they know that will be happening, probably in a few years.

Below are some photos that help tell the story of Front Door Communities.


This is the literal front door of Front Door Communities. The greeting table sits right outside the previous sanctuary. Outside you see the front gate. The church built a fence because homeless people were sleeping in the yard. It was a hazard for the church members and volunteers as well as the homeless people themselves and the neighbors.


In spite of the decision to build a fence because homeless people were sleeping on the grounds, they do still sometimes sleep close by. As I waited in the parking lot, several people walked up to the entrance gate, read a notice there, and walked away. This man did not even go to the gate. He adjusted his hood, then lay down.

I was interested to observe my thoughts as I watched. First, I thought he'd do as the others -- read the notice and walk away. When he stopped to adjust his hood I thought he was going to take it off because he was going inside. Then he went to his knees and I was befuddled -- was he going to do yoga or something? Finally he simply lay down with his head on his arms.




Several views of the previous sanctuary. You can still see the holes in the carpet where they took out the bolted-down chairs. They have gone through several configurations of this room. Now it has tables and a buffet for "Lifted Spirits," hot lunches for women 3 days a week. They converted the "stage" area to a sort of living room, where the women can sit, talk, read books, and magazines.


A clothes rack and water cart they put outside when giving away lunch bags 3 days a week.



The food storage and prep area for the lunch bags. They partner with Second Harvest and must follow stringent guidelines of individually wrapped food, all stored above the floor, and with specific temperature control.


The kitchen. The Second Harvest guidelines must be followed here, too, with separate food prep areas and monitored temperatures in the fridge.


The computer room, open to the clients when they are in the building.


A sleeping room, where the women can take a nap in clean sheets and blankets while they're in the building.


The prep room for the clothing boutique. Paula said sometimes it looks like this and sometimes it looks like you don't know what hit it. They are blessed with a volunteer who is a professional organizer. She helped to clear out and organize the whole building, and you can especially see her touch in the clothing boutique. The rack at the back here is one she is creating for Valentine's Day, with red and pink clothing.


Entering the clothing boutique.


The organizer has experience in retail and knows that when people enter a store, they first go to the right. This is the first rack on the right. You can see things are clearly labeled and organized. There are a few skirts and dresses, which they don't get too many of, then everything sorted by size.


Within the sizes, they are sorted by color. A true organizer for sure!


The "models" (mannequins), coat rack, and counter.


One plus-sized rack (pink hangers). Paula is showing me some leggings. They received a donation of several of these.



A list of toiletries they give out at the boutique.


Four women at a time are allowed in the boutique, always with a volunteer. They can take a basket with different colored ribbon on each so they know which is theirs. This is a favorite ministry at Front Door Communities and you can see why! The women can shop, take a shower, put on their new clothes, then come back to rest, visit, read, etc. They feel like a person again.

Clothing donations come in from various people. They learn about it by word of mouth, or like me, seeing something about it online. All the clothes are washed and hung to keep them nice. If they receive clothing they can't use, they recycle the totally unusable and donate others to St. Paul's, the Salvation Army, the Food Bank or other organizations.

Paula is one dedicated woman. She said she typically comes in at 9:30 am and leaves around 8 pm. As with our church and so many others, there are not enough volunteers, but those who come are amazing. Paula said they give way beyond what could be expected of volunteers and they are a joy to work with. She said she loves -- absolutely loves -- coming to work every day. She grew up in Puerto Rico and saw many layers of poverty. She decided to grow up and help people. She has been a pastor for many years but never did work like this. Now, she says, she feels like she is really "doing church."

It's kind of ironic that although Front Door Communities is doing church, they are no longer a church and not even associated with one. To comply with being the type of non-profit organization they are now, Paula removed religious symbols from the building such as the crosses. Yet, as she said, she is definitely doing church. She pastors the clients and volunteers. At the lunches she invites anyone who would like to pray into a circle of prayer. She said she does plenty of "preaching" and even gets into theological discussions on occasion.

Before I left, I asked some questions about how things work. As I mentioned, Paula is the only full-time paid employee. There are a couple clients who work at some jobs for minimum wage -- greeting and being a kitchen assistant. Front Door Communities is fully self-supported with donations. They do some fundraising to encourage donations and word-of-mouth garners others.

They are also learning about ways they can get donations in kind or grants. Bombas Socks has donated socks to Front Door Communities, for example. {Paula said she bought and gave all her loved ones Bombas socks for Christmas this year.) They also partner with some other organizations, one of which provides a mobile shower and laundry facility that is parked on Front Door's property on a scheduled basis.

As I mentioned, there are not enough volunteers and plenty of need. Not everyone wants or is able to interact face-to-face with the clients, and that is fine because there are plenty of ways to help "behind the scenes." Administrative work is needed for things like record keeping, reporting to various agencies, bookkeeping, and so on. There's a need for technological skills, too, for things like their web page and social networks.

There is need for boundaries, as well. I talked about how hard it is to figure out the best thing to do for the homeless who camp on our campus from time to time. We have given out toiletry packages, researched and gave out lists of places that would help, and even offered (at least a couple times by Trent) to drive them someplace for help. But, so far, no one has let us help them in that way. Some of our homeless visitors have caused harm to the campus -- such as exposing wires on the outdoor electrical outlets. They have had screaming matches at night resulting in complaints from the neighbors. Finally, it has become our policy to remove any belongings we find and try to make it uncomfortable and inconvenient to stay there. But we are a church! How can we Jesus followers turn away the very people Jesus says to take care of?

Paula was very sympathetic. At Front Door they have come up with guidelines and boundaries, such as who is allowed into the building when, including their lunch bag ministry that is only run from outside the building. They have definite hours when they provide things such as the hot lunches, access to the boutique and other places. Their primary purpose is homeless women so women who have a home but are still in need are only allowed in the boutique once a month. People don't like and even resent rules like these. It is not easy to say no, but Paula remarked that sometimes saying no is also helping the homeless, as well as protecting those who work in the program.

When I talked about my wondering if our church could do something like this, Paula said there is a lot to think about. For example, to my surprise, she said that when the church started this ministry, they lost members, especially young families.

Does their loss of young families surprise you, as it did me? I thought the younger generation, in general, had more of a heart for helping communities like the homeless. Maybe this loss of young families doesn't happen in all cases, but there is a lot of fear and some feeling that the people in a homeless situation have done something wrong that made them get there. It seems like some volunteers recognize that, there but for the grace of God, go I.

It is not easy to start a program to help the homeless, even something small to begin with. We have a heart to help, but there is a lot to learn. Some advice for our church was to start by participating in Front Door's ministries -- those who are interested -- to get the actual experience of what it's like. People could come and help giving out lunch bags, preparing and serving the hot lunches, assisting in the boutique, and so on. It's one thing to want to help, it's another to truly do it.

I was thinking we could reach out to the churches around us, such as St. Tim's, FAC, the "Saturday Church," the church behind us and any others nearby. Perhaps there would be some interested people that could potentially become the core group of a ministry in which we all participate. Right now, though, since we are focused on becoming a meal church, maybe it would make sense if we see if people want to participate in Front Door Communities' ministry. It will be good preparation for whatever we may do in the future.

What are your thoughts?

Monday, July 29, 2019

Book on meal church

A book on "dinner church" that is helpful! Some thoughts I had.

We Will Feast – Rethinking Dinner, Worship, and the Community of God, by Kendall Vanderslice

Thoughts
  • Order pizza and have it delivered. People can bring side dishes if they want – not obligated, or should we not even do that?
  • Start with just once a month
  • Try to get FAC to join us
  • “Bookend” bread and wine: Start with breaking and passing bread, then eat, then end with passing the juice
  • No schedules or lists for volunteers! Whoever comes pitches in. This way it doesn’t feel like yet another obligation to fill.
  • No sound or PP, no microphones, acoustical and unplugged
  • Tables and chairs in the back of the sanctuary where we have natural light from the windows
  • Possible order:
    • Stand in circle for bread breaking and passing
    • Get in line and get pizza on plate
    • Go to table
    • Singing first – 3 songs and prayer.
    • Everyone starts eating
    • Sermon while continuing and finishing eating.
    • Conversation prompts? Lectio divina? discussion around the table.
    • Holy ground rules – p. 86
    • Pass the juice around the table
    • Closing song
    • Clean up
  • No nursery so we don’t need nursery volunteers? Set up a small corner in back with the slide and climbing things from the nursery, and kids table and chairs with paper and crayons? Maybe no toys because that causes fights and would mean moms/dads would have to intervene more. (Sharing is hard.)
  • 5 minute breaks to allow questions and reflections a few times during sermon. Keep short so it’s not a Bible study, but allows some dialog and space for questions. (Bible study can make visitors feel excluded.)
To include in communications to church
  • Gospel – ministry of meals – p. 3, 14 – list of meals
  • Eating together central, not just because Jesus happened to have bread and wine – p. 17. More pp. 167-168.
  • Jesus didn’t first ask us to believe the right things but to practice them – p. 169
  • Community is central – p. 35. Use Betsy’s story about “doing life together.”
  • As world becomes more divided, digital and impersonal, sit together and eat, share communion remembering Christ. Something powerful happens at the table – p. 4
  • You don’t have to agree. Lively debate. – p. 6. Holy ground rules – p. 86
  • Dinner church not perfect – p. 9. Not a cool space – p. 88
  • Don’t make it complicated, don’t let the meal become a status symbol. Purpose is to build a life-giving community – p. 81
  • Full meal together as worship, Jesus present in all life, even mundane – p. 35 – Reformed world and life view!
  • Sabbath is not a reprieve from life, but putting an end to the restlessness that prevents a deep engagement with life, space to take delight in the fruits of our labor – p. 28

Tuesday, March 19, 2019

Bouncy balls -- or not

“Who here comes from a two-parent family?” Many hands raised. “How many of you went to college?” Most hands in the room raised. Monika Grasley from Micah 6:8 * (see information below!) asked a couple more questions to those of us at Classis Central California ** (see information below), then told us we may think we are normal, but we actually are the ones that are not normal, Most people in the world do not come from families and homes similar to what most of us attending this meeting do.

As she walked up to the front of the room, Monika set two balls on the table. One was a tennis ball and the other looked like a steel ball bearing about the size of the tennis ball. As she talked, Monika bounced the tennis ball. She told us a story of a group of churchgoers who went into the city to evangelize. They saw a group of guys and a little girl, maybe around 9 years old, and approached them. They shared the gospel with them and were thrilled that everyone in the group said they accepted Jesus.

Monika told how the evangelizers came home excited to report that this little girl and the guys with her were converted, their lives were changed, hallelujah! “But in reality, you know what happened to that little 9 year old girl? She was probably raped at home.” Lives are often not changed by a conversion experience.

Then Monika explained the reason for the two balls. She bounced the tennis ball -- catching it and then letting it go, up and down, up and down -- and talked about resiliency -- how when you have resiliency and hard things happen to you, you can bounce back like that tennis ball. But for many people, they are more like the ball bearing. She let that drop, and PLOP, there it stayed. There was no bouncing back.

What good things to remember as we live and share our faith with others. For many of us, certainly bad things happen. We struggle, we grieve, we lose people we love, we don’t always get what we want or need, but we have resiliency. We are able to bounce back. How do we live with, love, and share our faith with the many people who are like that ball bearing, who do not have resiliency, who cannot bounce back?



Micah 6:8 is a team within Classis to equip our churches and individuals to develop a deeper heart for our marginalized community members, to address issues of injustice and bring tools to help our churches to be stewards of our resources by not only doing mercy ministry but also by looking at systemic issues of justice. 
Monika Grasley
LifeLine CDC (Community Development Corporation)
209-201-2905www.lifelinecdc.org

** The Christian Reformed Church in North America (CRCNA) has a governance structure that deals with matters such as doctrine, ethical issues, and church life and practice. This structure involves the church assemblies: the council (local assembly of the elders, deacons and minister(s) of a congregation), the classis(regional assembly), and the synod (bi-national [Canada and U.S.A.] assembly). The structure is as follows:
Note: The CRC speaks of our major assemblies as broader, not higher, assemblies. Therefore, the grid is horizontal, not vertical. (from https://www.crcna.org/welcome/christian-reformed-church-governance)

The story continues

So, here we are, months from the last time I posted about Hineni. We have a pastor and we are doing some planning for the future. I don't think I'll continue the Hineni group, but I am thinking about continuing to blog about the church and what we are doing.

Right now, I wanted to post a little story of what we saw at our last Classis meeting. It really struck me. I've been thinking about it ever since. It's the next entry.

Sunday, October 28, 2018

Disappointment

I listened to this podcast today, “Speaking With Joy,” the episode called “Disappointment.” described in this blog, hosted by Joy Clarkson. What a lot to think about! If you have an hour (maybe on your commute?), listen to this. Joy speaks of the millennial generation and the disappointment they embody. I had never thought about that myself, but it makes a lot of sense. I also thought about disappointment in relation to our church.

Joy uses songs from a band, the movie “Lavender Ladies,” and Wendell Berry’s novel, Hannah Coulter to illustrate disappointment. I also was reminded of an old Lake Wobegon story that Garrison Keillor told called “Tomato Butt.” In it, he describes the misery of being a child in the hot, humid summer of the midwest with no air conditioning, and the special agony of living next door to someone who has an air conditioning unit. He and his family has to listen to the neighbor’s cooling unit’s hum and cool-making noises as they sweat in the unrelenting heat. When he complains about it to his mother, she says, “Make the best of it.”

Joy, herself a millennial, says:
i don’t want my generation to be defined by their disappointment.
i want us to be defined by what we made of disappointing times.
When describing the movie, she says that one of the two sisters, who are the main characters of the movie, nearly misses the surprise of a new chance of happiness in her life because she is trying to force the fulfillment of an early disappointment in her life. Joy says the movie taught her:
If you have disappointments in life, to be able to live a good life, you have to -- at some point -- put them to rest. And if you don’t let go of them your hands won’t be open to new things, new surprises, to see the new goodness around you. The more that you hold on to the vision of life that you thought your life would be the less you’re able to embrace the good things that come along in your path.
Joy quotes Hannah Coulter thinking:
There is no ‘better place’ than this, not in this world. And it is by the place we’ve got, and our love for it and our keeping of it, that this world is joined to Heaven. . . .
’Something better! Everybody’s talking about something better. The important thing is to feel good and be proud of what you got, don’t matter if it ain’t nothing but a log pen.’
Having been a member of our church for close to 40 years -- and I know some of you have been there even longer! -- and having seen what now seems like “the golden years” of our church history, when we had full pews, lusty singing, multiple small groups, large fun-filled youth groups, and many get-togethers just to enjoy each others’ company, there are times I experience disappointment. I wish we could become again at least some semblance of what we once were. I sometimes go down the rabbit hole of asking what made our church change.

This podcast reminded me to “make the best of it” with “this place we’ve got, and our love for it and our keeping of it,” to put my disappointment to rest and open my hands “to new things, new surprises, the new goodness” around me.

That’s what hineni is, right? Opening our hands and hearts and saying, “Here I am, Lord, ready and willing to do what you ask.” We look forward to the joyful surprises ahead. And all God’s people said,...Amen!
"The more that you hold on to the vision of life that you thought your life would be
the less you’re able to embrace the good things that come along in your path."

You cried when I went to the hospital

Photo by  Kaboompics .com  from  Pexels I come from a family of 4 children. The youngest in the family, my sister Jan, contracted spinal...